I went to College Mass on Monday. The sermon involved a bit of finding out your vocation in life. To think about why you're at university and to make the most of it. The readings were heading in that direction anyways so I suppose he made the best of it.
I didn't spend that much time thinking about it.
But as I spent yet another day doing the same routine, I felt an overwhelming sense of ennui. I don't deal with disappointment well and today made me miss J even more. He always knew how to listen and say the right things to make me feel better. I was never happier in my life than when I was with him.
I once read somewhere that unhappiness is caused by the amount of choice that we have now. I think that it might be true. Everyone is always chasing after the perfect one and because the world has shrunk so much, everyone thinks it's possible.
But enough of this crap. I am going to have some food, crack open a bottle of wine and watch some tv.
Maybe I'll be more coherent later. My brain feels like such an addled mess.
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it sounds like you don't really miss J, you miss me. :)
be careful not to romanticize the past because you are having a blue day. i hope you had a great visit with mary! and get your work done so you can come to the states. did i say that already?
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