Old age creeps up on you

And you would think that with each passing year I would get wiser.

Maybe I just get harder. And create an extra layer to peel off me.

I'm feeling rather mellow today. A few things happened which created undue stress for me, rather unnecessarily so needed time to chill. Went back to the lab to do a bit of work as it's nice and quiet now. Will pop back in tomorrow to keep a few things going. Decisions.

Went out last night with work peeps for a few drinks and I ended up drinking a fair bit and talking to a rather lovely Irish policeman. Shame he didn't take my number. Not that it matters, because as the years pass it's harder and harder for me to actually tell someone what I really feel. I also realised that most of the people I tend to hang out are boys. I do have very good female friends but none of them actually live near me. This is a situation which needs to be remedied.

Received a large CD delivery and I now have way too much chilled out music.

Currently listening to Ray Lamontagne.
Will move on to Scott Matthews next.

There's been a terrible fog around Oxford for the past 3-4 days. (I can't really tell for sure because I don't leave my room much anymore, yet the thesis isn't really looking that good.) But I spoke to the boss earlier and he said that the fog was rather wonderful because it gave Oxford a Dickens-esque charm, rather like how everyone pictures England in the olden days. Think sepia tint when you process your digital photos and it's like that. Very romantic. Not very nice if you're alone in the cold.

I saw the first few frozen cobwebs the other day. I love looking at frozen cobwebs. It's like little fragile pieces of ice that get melted by the day. Very much like life.

Haven't been to church in a while, missing out on God a bit but not really inspired to go at the moment. I should be more worried about it but yet, my faith isn't shaken. I can still argue that there is a God and that God shapes me and moves me in way which I can't describe but to me, there is no doubt that there is God and he works for me.

You know old age is creeping up on you when you start romanticising about days gone by and it begins to dawn on you that you should have learnt from the same old mistakes.

merry christmas and happy new year everyone. I miss all my friends dearly.