Shoot me where it hurts

The weather is amazing. England is truly beautiful when summer hits. I've been spending days in the parks "reading" while waiting for my experiments. Spoke to my supervisor who convinced me that I was worrying for no reason at all. I went to see him in a mild panic, explaining that I didn't think I was doing enough for my PhD. He's so confident in my work, it makes me feel that it's good enough. I hate it when doubt about what you do creeps in and makes you feel worthless.

It also doesn't help that one of my friends has already started writing up (on time, which is rare) and she's got a couple of papers published. Don't you hate perfectionists? Actually, no, we don't hate them. We're just jealous that people make it look so effortless when we work our sorry little asses off and yet we still can't be as good as they are. WTF is that all about right?

Been contemplating a lot about my life lately, I haven't been out much lately in hopes that it will spur me on to work but it's making me feel as if I'm too much of a geek (no hope there, I'm already a PhD student) and I'm bored. Stupendously bored out of my mind. Listening to strangely depressing, almost suicidal music doesn't help does it?

Went to watch Macbeth last night at New College. Personally, I don't go to student or amateur productions, why pay money for them? But I went because JM's woman (Ale) was in it. She played Witch 3. It was actually pretty good. Amazing for a student production. They styled it as a promenade play, so we started off in the mound of New College (it just looks more and more beautiful everytime I go in there, DAMN-IT, why am I in a shitty hell hole of a college?) then moved on to corner of a building, then the chapel and finally the inner quad of the college. I'm also not a big fan of the Bard but the play was interactive so it was pretty entertaining as well.
Thumbs up. Their run ends on Sunday and I think they might be sold out but if you can get your grubby little mitts on a couple, I encourage you to go.

World Cup has started. And it's joyous. Now to get a couple of rent-a-friends so I can go to the pub to watch football with them. Barring that, I might lower myself to watch footie with A. Actually, I wouldn't sink that low.

My World Cup predictons:
Group A, Germany, Ecuador (and that was before today's matches, I am NOT a bandwagon jumper)
Group B, England, Sweden
Group C, Argentina, Holland
Group D, Portugal, Iran
Group E, Italy, USA
Group F, Brazil, Japan
Group G, France, Switzerland
Group H, Spain, Saudi Arabia (although in hindsight, I should have gone for Ukraine)

And have been contemplating on life after PhD, so many places I could go but I get the distinct impression from my mother that I should be going home. Well, something of her going along the lines of "when you're home" probably gave me the idea. But I think I'd quite like the idea of maybe going to the States. Although, they pay really well in Singapore and it's closer to home. Choices that drive me insane.

It will also be my first "real job". How freaky, I will be contributing to society soon. Pay taxes and shit like that. How will I cope?

Enough crap for a Friday night. I will sleep early, go to work tomorrow, get some more sun and then hit the town. I'm done thinking, let's get partying. Life is what you make of it and if you spend too much time worrying about it, it'll be gone by the time you decide what you want to do!